As I laid awake tonight wondering how long it would take Luke to decide he was hungry again and feeling frustrated that I couldn't relax, I started thinking about how quickly life flies by. How, no matter how much you want it to, it never stops. I finally realized that I wasn't going to sleep, so I thought I'd reminisce, and let you know what I was thinking about.
Left to Right: Delila, Me, J.B., Jade
Left to right: Me, J.B., Jade, Delila
When I think about my younger brothers and sisters this is pretty much what I see (plus an even younger Charlie). Being out here in California, so many miles away, I don't get to see them too often. So, when I think about my Ellison family, this is what I picture. Until I talk to, see pictures of, or get a visit from one of them, then, all of the sudden, I realize that my little sisters and little brothers...aren't really so little anymore. And it hits me like a thousand pound brick.
Jade--freckle-faced, round cheek, loves to smile, Jade. I can remember playing "stuffed animals" 'til all hours of the morning, and, whenever we would get in "arguments" BlueBeary and Elephanty were no longer married. I can hardly believe she is all grown up and making those life-altering decisions about work, marriage, and family.
Then there's Delila--skin-and-bone, "Mother", funny-eared, Delila. She may not be "all grown up", but she is definitely well on her way. I can't believe she's graduating in less than a year.
Of course there's J.B.--ha! what to say about him? crazy, exhausting, chase-you-around-the-house, J.B. I can't believe he's going to be driving in a few months, and he's as tall as my husband...that's just not right.
Lastly, we have Charlie. Oh, Charlie--Mr. The-curlers-and-microwave-are-growing, "Something's twisted", I'na hold you, Charlie. I still remember playing sick so that I could miss school and go see him right after he was born. And now he's a gorgeous, in-that-stage-of-life, teenager, ready to show the world what he's made of.
And when I come to this realization, someting deep down inside of me aches. I find myself longing for those care-free days when we would spend two hours on summer Sundays driving to the Girls Camp. Or staying up, butterflies in our stomach, the night before we took our family vacation to MISSOURI!! I miss the exhausting, "way too long" trips in the car. Part of me just can't believe that that part of my life is gone, and only memories.
But then, a little voice inside of me whispers, "You can still have that...with your own little family". And it may not be, two hour trips to the Girls Camp, or specifics like that. But I can make sure that my kids enjoy their sibblings as much as I did. And I did enjoy them. I may not have shown it as much as I should have, but those moments, those memories in my life mean som much to me, now that I'm grown...I'm so glad I have them.
So, as I am finally tired enough to sleep--I think--I must say goodnight...But I do want to say something to those four special people in my memories. I Love You! You are so very dear to me, and I may not always let you know how important you are to me, but I do want you to know that I wouldn't have traded any one of you for any other sibling on the entire planet. So, thank you for being in my life...I'm glad we chose each other.
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Okay... I hope your happy, you made me cry... what a sweet, sweet girl you are... and if it is hard for you to think of each of you sibs as almost grownup... imagine how difficult it is for your mother and I. We are so very blessed to have each and everyone of you, and our own sibs and children in our family. Isn't it wonderful... when you come to the realization, No one compare to my family... and the Lord has given them especially to me... That means I now have a responsibility... that's where it can get a little scary... but you have it figured out. Yeah for you... We Love you and are so very glad to have you in our family... Your loving ~ Auntie K.
Okay... go to my blog, then click on the link to Natalie's blog... you have to see the blog she entered where another church posted on their outdoor sign for the followers not to pray about the Book of Mormon. CRAZY! That's how they get you???... Can you imagine?
Lacy, I love You!!! Thanks for the beautiful post. You know you made me cry too, because you called me right as I was finishing reading it. Family life is often crazy and hectic and bitter and yet when all is said and done, we remember the good. The difficult is brushed away with a laugh or kindly overlooked or completely forgotten and we know that it was all good because we were together. I love that. Take Care,
LOVE-MOM
What a great post. I must say though...your blogspot is quite bright....to say the least! Love ya!
So after reading and seeing this sweet picture, I was inspired to go through a few treasured photos of my own... what a fun time I have had. Yeah for you!
Ummm...I think we have fros......its cool right..we make them look good...you want to know what really blows my mind...how in the WORLD did we not catch our hair on fire when we were being pyros in the backyard; dumping gasoline in a bucket; lighting it with an entire box of 500 matches....we were professionals thats why! It really amazes me that neither one of us became a firefighter...whodathunk! Well you know your blog made me....well I almost cried but then I choked it back down cuz I'm like that....but if I wasn't such a hard-a it would have happened...you're a great sister and we have some AWESOME memories..like seriously I don't think most normal people have the kinds we do..I LOVE YA SIS!
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